Ep.6/ You Cannot Build a New Life on a Borrowed Identity
“To thine own self be true” is not a suggestion. It is a mandate.
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There comes a moment in many women’s lives when the carefully constructed version of themselves they have spent years perfecting begins to feel… tight.
Not necessarily broken.
Not necessarily unsuccessful.
Just unfamiliar.
Like their spirit doesn’t fit in their skin anymore.
You wake up one day and realize you have become highly skilled at being who other people needed you to be.
You are dependable.
Professional.
Pleasant.
Accomplished.
Resilient.
Responsible.
You know how to lead meetings, manage crises, hold families together, show up polished, hit deadlines, mentor others, and keep moving even when you are exhausted.
You know how to survive.
But somewhere along the way, many women, especially Black women, quietly lose contact with themselves beneath the performance of competence.
And because the performance often works, because it earns praise, promotions, applause, safety, and validation, it can take years to recognize that the life you have built may not actually fit the person you are becoming.
Let me tell you, that realization is unsettling.
Because once you see it, you can’t keep looking the other way.
I think this is why so many accomplished women feel confused when they arrive at seasons of transition.
On paper, everything looks “fine.”
But internally?
They feel disconnected from their own desires.
Disconnected from joy, from rest, from imagination.
Disconnected from the younger version of themselves who once believed life could feel expansive instead of endlessly performative.
And here is the difficult truth:
You cannot build a truly aligned life using an identity that was created primarily for survival, approval, or protection.
At some point, you must ask:
Who am I when I stop performing?
Not who are you at work.
Not who are you in service to everybody else.
Not who have you learned to become in order to be respected, safe, desirable, or accepted.
Who are you?
That question sounds simple until you sit with it long enough to realize how much of your life has been shaped by conditioning.
Many of us inherited identities before we ever had the opportunity to choose for ourselves.
We inherited expectations.
Be strong.
Be practical.
Be humble.
Be grateful.
Don’t ask for too much.
Don’t make people uncomfortable.
Don’t be difficult.
Don’t be wasteful.
Don’t be frivolous…too loud…too colorful.
Don’t tell me “no”.
Don’t dream so loudly that disappointment can hear you.
And for Black women specifically, there is often an additional layer:
the pressure to appear endlessly capable, emotionally regulated, and impressive in order to survive systems that were never designed with our flourishing in mind.
So we learn to curate ourselves carefully.
We become versions of ourselves that are easier to explain. Easier to market. Easier to approve of.
But eventually, the soul grows tired of being edited.
And what I am learning, both personally and through the women I work with, is that empowerment is not just about confidence.
It is about self-definition. Autonomy. Agency.
It is the willingness to tell the truth about what you actually want, even when that truth disrupts the image people have become comfortable with.
That kind of honesty changes everything.
Because once you stop building from obligation and begin building from alignment, your decisions begin to shift.
The relationships you tolerate begin to shift.
The opportunities you pursue begin to shift.
The way you spend your time, energy, and creativity begins to shift.
Even your dreams begin to sound different.
I used to teach high school theatre and one of my favorite units was Shakespeare. I was always amazed at how my kids, a largely Black and Latine community of brilliant young people, connected with this line from Shakespeare’s Hamlet:
“This above all, to thine own self be true.”
They gravitated to that line and really set down in it. They began to wield it powerfully, even when it wasn’t convenient for me as their teacher. I digress.
Many of us have heard it quoted as gentle wisdom in passing.
I no longer hear it that way.
I hear it as a mandate.
A directive.
A warning, even.
Because there is a cost to abandoning yourself for too long.
There is a cost to continuously betraying your desires in exchange for external validation.
There is a cost to becoming so committed to maintaining an identity that you no longer recognize your own reflection beneath it.
And while I believe there is grace for every season of survival, I also believe there comes a time when survival alone is no longer enough.
At some point, you must begin asking:
What would my life look like if it actually reflected me?
Not the polished version.
Not the strategic version.
Not the socially acceptable version.
The true version.
The honest version.
The version that still remembers wonder, joy, creativity, softness, rest, beauty, pleasure, curiosity, and desire.
The version that has not completely forgotten herself.
This is the work I find myself returning to over and over again with the women in my community.
Not simply helping them “pivot” professionally.
But the bbigger work is helping them reconnect with themselves deeply enough to build lives and leadership practices that are actually sustainable, aligned, and alive.
That work can feel uncomfortable at first.
Because once you stop asking,
“What should I do?”
you eventually arrive at the more confronting question:
“What do I truly want?”
And that question changes people.
If this resonates with you, I hope you’ll stay awhile.
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Sometimes clarity begins simply by telling the truth out loud in the right room.
I have one more question for you:
On a scale of 1–10, How aligned does your current life feel with the person you truly believe yourself to be becoming?
1 = I barely recognize myself anymore
10 = My life fully reflects who I truly am
No judgment.
Just honesty.
Because empowerment begins there.
I’m with you, Sis.
